Well, I’m officially dipping into savings. I went almost four months without having to do it, so I guess I did pretty well. Doesn’t mean I’m happy about it. And I’m afraid it won’t last long.
Of course, in the meantime I’ve also put about $800 on my credit card – Christmas stuff, health insurance, groupon deals, the dinner or two out when I suddenly realized I may not have enough in my account to cover it.
I’ve been fairly good about living on budget – even this month, which was a surprise. Other than my bills, I’m living on $15/day. That’s groceries, gas for the car, and “extras.” I’m going to see if I can go down to $14/day in February.
I’m sure you’re thinking – $15/day? That’s easy! I only spend $7 on lunch each day. But think about how much it takes to fill up the car – that’s several days worth of budget there. And the grocery store – that’s a couple of days. I should be spending less than that, but, hey, I was at $25/day a year ago, so I’d say I’m doing pretty well.
It sucks, though. I’m in one of those vicious cycles, where I know I need to get out of the house more, but getting out of the house means spending money, even if it’s $2.50 for a cup of tea at Panera. So, I stay home all day, and I’m slowly driving myself crazy.
Okay, not completely crazy. Some days are better than others. But I’ve had more than my fair share of alone time at this point. If you read my How to Be Happy post, you know that the happiest people get 8 hours of social interaction a day. On a good day, I get about two. And that’s about once a week. So, yeah, there are days where I can barely move I’m so depressed. I’m working on that, though.
I know I need to start volunteering, but most places I’ve looked want a 6 month commitment, and I can’t give that. I hope to have a job soon, in which case I won’t be available during the week. I’ve had “Go to Humane Society” written on my to do list for several weeks now – I just can’t pull myself out of my fog to do it. But I’ve got a volunteer thing tonight, and I’m going to start helping my friend out with her non-profit, so hopefully that will help.
In the meantime, I’m trying to get the book revised and edited. It’s slow going, because I’m having to go back and do a lot of research. And I’m still not sure how I want to work the ending. But I’ll get there. And I have another book idea in my head, and I’m dying to start that, but…one thing at a time. I’ll never get the first one done if I start on another. I’ve done that before, and currently have two half-finished novels (not including the current one) that are just sitting there…waiting for some TLC.
I’ll get there…
In the meantime, I feel like I’m ready to start doing match.com again, to finish up my subscription, but then I worry about the money I’ll spend on going out. It’s great if the guy pays, and a lot of the time he does, but can I afford to take the chance? We’ll see. And then, of course, there’s that fun “So what do you do?” question. I hate saying I’m unemployed. I think my new answer will be, “I’m writing a book.”