I am a master at avoidance. It’s my stand-by coping mechanism. If I don’t want to deal with something, I simply…forget it’s there. I don’t deal with it. Simple. Easy.
Yeah…can you see problems with this?
A while back, The Pilot and I were having problems. Scratch that – I was having problems. While I still think that some of my issues were slightly justified, I managed to blow everything entirely out of proportion. And the main reason was my propensity to compare our relationship with the relationships of others.
Stupid, I know.
Since then, things have been Faboo. And I have been avoiding certain blogs and message boards like the bloody plague. I’ve wanted to read them, because I feel like some of the people I connected with were becoming friends, and I want to catch up with their lives. But instead, I studiously ignore the links in my favorites. They’re not there, I don’t see them, they don’t exist.
I’m getting closer to checking in on them. Maybe soon.
(Incidentally, my personal life is not the only place I practice avoidance in this way. Bees…bees are another prime example. If one is flying around me, I simply hold still and close my eyes. Because, if I don’t see it, it’s not there. It’s the same thing my cat does when he doesn’t want to acknowledge me.)